Madonna admitted suicidal thoughts during the fight for her son.

Hard times for Madonna

According to The Sun: Madonna confessed that during her battle for custody of her son Rocco with ex-husband Guy Ritchie, she often thought about suicide.

The 67-year-old singer shared these thoughts during the On Purpose podcast:

“There were moments in my life when I wanted to cut off my hands.”

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The struggle for Rocco

She noted:

“One of the most painful situations was the battle for custody of my son. I truly thought about suicide. I couldn’t bear this pain any longer.”

The conflict began in 2015 when 15-year-old Rocco stayed in London with his father after a trip to the UK with Madonna during her world tour and refused to return to the US for Christmas.

The singer added:

“Even if my marriage failed, many marriages fail, people marry not with whom they should be. Someone is trying to take my child away, and I thought: maybe it’s better for me to just die. That’s how I thought.”

She recounted that during tours, she had to go on stage, even though she was 'just lying on the dressing room floor and crying.'

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Coping with suffering

Eventually, they came to an agreement: Rocco stayed with his father. Madonna said that now, when her son is 25, their relationship has improved significantly.

The singer noted:

“I was abandoned by my own mother in childhood, so the loss of a child was like a repetition of life for me. I could not come to terms with it, which caused me a lot of suffering.”

Fortunately, now she can talk about their relationship as good:

“Now I’m happy to say that we are really good friends, although back then I didn’t see it. I thought it was the end of the world.”

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